anxiety & expectation
13 February 20, 2.03am Examination result is going to come out in less than 24 hours. I'm really scared of how calm I am right now. This calmness is almost the same as when I was waiting for my examination result in my fourth semester in diploma and, when the result came out, I got a GPA below than 3.5. It's weird. I'm currently pursuing my Bachelor Degree and I've gotten Dean's List for the past three semesters and I was so nervous for my whole semester break waiting for it to come out. Does this mean that I won't get a Dean's List for this semester? If so, then there goes another dream of mine staying a dream forever. During my diploma graduation, I had to line up exactly behind graduates who had received the Vice Chancellor's Awards. It was painful having to watch how I could've been one of them if I had done a little bit better during my fourth semester. My parents were hoping for me to get the award too and that made it more painf...